I've talked to a few people about this and may have even touched on this before. From the people I have talked to, and the research I have done, the weird things I have seen all my life a most likely due to my high levels of cortisol. I remember growing up, and at night I would have these vivid nightmares. I still do. Thing was, and is, that I wasn't sleeping when some occurred. I remember being in 4th grade and sitting in the living room at 2am, because it was the coolest room in the house, rocking because I was having a cortisol attack, and I wasn't alone. There were people in the room behind and to my sides. Just starring at me. So I starred at the TV, watching Cartoon Network's old reruns, until my chest stopped hurting and I got sleepy again, usually around 4am.
I still have them now.
The last 5 years, we have had a black cat live with us. He has piercing eyes that shine at night. HE doesn't like to come near me. Usually stays a few feet away. Doesn't eat much. And has followed me to work a few times. When he followed me to work, it was concrete to me that the was not real. He would walk by the door to my office, and repeat the same pass over and over without regard to anyone there.
Last week, when Mrs. Zebra and I went to bed, the room changed paint, and all the furniture was rearranged all of a sudden. Nothing made sense. It scared me. Or my wife's shirt will change colors from when I look at her one minute to the next.
22 days and this bugger gets cut out!
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