Good News Everyone!

Well, last week I saw my new (hopefully) doctor and did a follow up at Swedish. The new doctor is a natureopath who used herbs along with western medicine to treat illness. She wants me to try an herb from India that regulates adrenal function and cortisol. That sounded good until I went to Swedish.

At Swedish, they acted as if they actually believed me. They sent me home with a jug to pee in and told me that they wanted to try me on one of two medicines. Corcept and Signifor.

Here is the catch: I can get Signifor, a $25,000/yr drug, for free if I can prove I am having cushing's symptoms. If I get on Corcept, my health insurance is free. And from what I understand, signifor works better and is more long term. So, I dont know what will happen. NORD wants to cancel my insurance because they didn't tell me I had to be on any medication for the program I am enrolled in. So I will probably loose my access to medical care until I can get approved for charity care, but they don't cover lab work . Which is a big deal seeing as the original testing came to just over $25,000 (everything cushings related must be a multiple of 5) and the surgery was around $50k.

This week also saw two other good things. Well, sort of. A very good couple of friends who were domestic partners ended this part of their relationship and one moved in with us to get back on their feet. I don't transition well, but its been easier with them helping us with bills and house work. Its going to be a good thing. We also finally saw a raise in our food stamps. Substantial raise. I wont get into how much, but we don't have to worry about food for a while.

I cant get hold of the place I was applying for close to home. They wont even return my calls. So Im stuck driving an hour each day and its killing me. But all in all, it was a stressful but good week.

Thanks again for reading!

The Weary, and cautiously optimistic, Zebra. 

Long time, no see...

Hey all. How have you been?

Im sorry its been so long. A lot has happened since I last posted. Mrs. Zebra lost her job, and to be closer to my doc in Seattle, we scrimped and scraped and barely made it up here. Just in time for the huge budget cuts to happen to social services. So we are in line to fill out paperwork to get in line to see a doctor. Mrs. Zebra is really sick, but we arent 100% sure what with. Her skin is thinning and her hands and feet are always in pain. I thought that I could go back to work and for the last month I have been commuting 2hrs one way to get to a part time job that makes just over minium wage. So after this month, we will probably be evicted. But maybe someone can help us out. Check out the video below and see if you can help.

The very weary zebra.

1 year post op: kick me while Im down why dont you?

Im sorry its been a while since my last update. Ive been so down and low in energy, and depressed that I just havent wanted to. That and I really feel like no one cares. 

Since my last update, I lost my insurance, and Mrs. Zebra lost her job thanks to the stalker and a co-worker dogging on her so much she snapped. Both of us are unemployed, both are sick. Im not sure what we are going to do, but we both feel we need to move west. Please, if you can, donate to help us move closer to Dr. Ludlum, by clicking the button in the upper left hand corner.

Last week, I had my 1year post op. I felt like crap all day after my Cortisol Stimulation Test, and couldnt get out of bed the next day.

I got a call from Dr. L's office today and I was kind of frustrated at it. Those of you who know what is going on with me might know why, but in a nutshell I had my pituitary slaughtered to rid myself of the tumor inside. They missed some, my numbers never crashed, and my pituitary never woke up again. In September, and January, same thing. I went to Seattle to do yet another CST, and now they are saying I have enough ACTH and cortisol to be life sustaining, but I still have Cushing's. My frustration comes from this: Later last week, I coudlnt get out of bed. Actually, I felt like crap all day Wednesday (the day of the test) and couldnt get out of bed Thursday morning either. So assuming Im still cyclical, and assuming my pituitary, until last week, was dead or zombified at least, wouldnt it be the TUMOR causing that? And if it is, is it really smart to be weening? How do we know if it is or not?

They want me to ween by 2.5mg a week, which is very slow. But last time I tried weening I ended up in the ER each time. I probably should have been in the ER last Thursday but I hadnt thrown up my stress dose (thanksAdrienne Brandstetter) and thats usually the point in which I go. What do you experts think? I know 20mg/day is high but if it is the tumor doing this, is weening off the steroids really that smart?

The pit is dead still, because Im not making GH or Testosterone either. The tumor is the only thing that could be making ACTH, even according to them. So why ween? If the tumor was "ON" that morning, even at a low enough level to look normal, I dont understand why that means Im ok to ween.

I hope this gets sorted soon, or I dont know what will happen.

Frustrated Weary Zebra

Dejected

What a day.

I went to my 2 month check up on Monday. I had two doc appointments and a battery of blood tests. I got the results yesterday. Most of the results I was ready for. I am extremely low in all my hormones: Testosterone, prolactin, Growth Hormone. I was prepared for that. These things are fixable. Or at least I thought they were. What I was surprised at is my cortisol is still higher than it needs to be. They want to retest, but cant until I am completely weened off the steroids. That should happen within a few weeks. They warned me I was an oddball case. Im not worrying over the cortisol as much. Im worried about the other hormones right now.

Without Testosterone, I dont have the energy or motivation I need, and the lack of it kills my bones. The GH will also make me feel better and help my mussels rebuild. I cant have the GH yet because my sugar was high the day of the test. I had been out of my meds for a few days and coupled with stress, didn't help my sugar. So they want proof it is ok. Plus, if I DO have a tumor still, or even just tumor cells, the GH will make them grow faster.

I was going to get the Testosterone perception, but that might kill my chances to have children. The docs suggested I see a reproductive specialist to get other hormones that can boost my testosterone. The problem with this is that out of all the reproductive doctors I have talked to, most do not deal with men, and the rest just tell me to go back to my endo. I HATE doctors here!

So Im stuck. I dont know what to do. I was hoping I would stain deficient because I could get meds that way, but I cant get any meds. I am beginning to think surgery was a bad idea.

The Weary, Dejected, Zebra

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The Zebra Wife has something to say!

Here is the misses and her comment on Camp Cushie. Enjoy!

The Weary Zebra

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Cushie Camp Day 5

Here is the conclusion of my trip to Dr. Ludlum's Camp Cushie. I do have one more video from that week to post in relation to Cushing's, but I will have to do that tonight/tomorrow. For now, here is Day 5. S

The Weary Zebra

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Zebra Snippet #9: Cushing's Awareness Day

Yesterday was Cushing's Awareness Day. Never heard of it? Not surprising. Its not covered in the corporate media and as Cushing's is relatively unknown, so is its awareness day. Kind of ironic, right? As we find more and more about this disease, doctors are discovering that it is much more common than once thought. 1/5 the population, 20%, are said to have a pituitary tumor. That cant be normal. But the doctors of this country who are not researchers are going by what they were taught in school: It cant be a platypus because they are to rare! If you are reading this and you think you have ANY of the symptoms of Cushing's, please see a couple of doctors. And pass along our cause to others. The more we talk about this, the more we all will know. And knowing is half the battle.

(...G.I.Joe!)

The Weary Zebra

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Wanna know what Cushing's Affects?

Watching the Health Insurance Reform pass, I was reading Moxie Molly's Blog and saw this picture. I think it says it all. There isnt much this disease doesn't affect. It looks like another long night...

Green Light for Tests, But Need Referal

"Dear, Dr. XXXX
I have been tracking my symptoms for a few months and based on my symptoms and the research I have done and people I have talked to, I elected to do testing for Cushing's disease. I did a 24hr UFC and my results are attached. It is 3X the normal high. Because of this, I requested a second opinion froma specialist in Seattle. Baised on his recomendation, I am asking for a referal to see him. They need it for me to cross state lines. They have requested the following faxed to them:
" Refer to Dr. William Ludlam for extensive workup and treatment for potential complex Cushing's Syndrome and pituitary disease. "
Because of my test result, we got insurance on me just in case I am positive. If you have any questions, you can call me, or Dr. Ludlum's Coordinator

Thanks,"

I was given the go a head for testing from Swedish and my *spit*insurance company after a $500 deductible. But now I need to convince my primary doctor or the doctor I did the test with for a referral . Both are very egotistical, but since my doc wont loose any money on the deal, I went with him first. I got a conformation that he got it and will get back with me. Whatever prayers or good vibes you can spare, please send them my way!

The Weary Zebra

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Zebra Snippet #2: Cushie Meter?

Again, if you have a better idea what to call these short updates, let me know.

I had a bad attack last night, and another one this morning, though not as bad. If you read my other blog, the one on blogger (this is reposted to that one too) you will know of my "purple rage". As I learn more about this disease, I have noticed three things that happen when I get panicky/mad/frustrated/high: 1) my face flushes nearly every time, 2) my stripes turn red/purple, and 3) so do the "dots" on my arms and back. I have a built in cortisol or "Cushie" meter. Its weird to those who don't know me, and to those who have known me for a while, its just an explanation. So when I start to feel the rush of hormones, I just check my "meter" like most check their watch. Because I don't wear a watch. I sweat too much. Wow, that was a bit random. Happy Monday.

The Weary Zebra

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